Could it be??

By far the most common craving of pregnant women is not to be pregnant.  ~Phyllis Diller

Woke up a lot last night with cramping and contractions.  Terrified that my water was going to break.  As much as I am ready for this little guy to show his face, I can’t today.  D-man has his first ever play tonight (he’s the scarecrow in the Wizard of Oz at school) and I cannot miss it.  I grew up with my parents missing a lot, not showing up or not letting me participate, and I refuse to do that to my child.  I know he will understand, because that is just the kind of kid he is, but I won’t.

So I had quite a few conversations with Baby Boy and with God last night and this morning.  Begging for a delay, just until nine or so tonight.  After the play is over, he can come any time.  I’ve still been contracting and cramping this morning.  Nothing regular or really timeable.  My midwife is not supposed to check me for dilation until 37 weeks, but if these cramps continue, I’m going to push for her to do it tomorrow at my appointment. 

As hopeful as I am that this is prelabor going on, I am terrified.  I was barely 20 with my first.  I had no idea what I was doing.  And I’m still not sure I know what I’m doing.  I’m not sure if any mom ever does.  I hope not.  Cause if they do, I’m screwed.

The only time a women wishes she was a year older is when she’s expecting a baby.  ~Mary Marsh

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